I'm kinda dealing with a thing...I don't wanna use labels but my BFF may call it a Funk.
It began last weekend at the end of another 4 day hunting trip from my sweet husband. It's like I hit my limit, after being on overtime.
So the first part of the week I had to resist the urge to go back to bed and I felt a bad feeling closing in on me.
Luckily I was able to thwart it with my number one medication...exercise.
For some reason it does the trick. Usually.
Yesterday however I gave in to the urge and it has turned out to be a turning point. All I wanna do is sleep and eat. Not Good. I don't feel like doing anything else. Like really don't wanna do anything else.
I am not one to just sit around and feel sorry for myself so heres my theories as to why I feel so crummy!
1. Lack of quality sleep, i.e. twins in bed on a consistent basis for going on 3 years
2. Uncertainty in the future, where we'll be living, my calling, Nate's job (I'm not good with change)
3. Lack of much needed exteneded mommy break leading to feelings of inadequacy and being overwhelmed.
4. Not much to look forward to...?
5. Grandma taking a turn for the worse and will probably pass on soon.
Its probably a combination. I hesitate sharing because I don't want you to feel sorry for me. I'm really ok, usually I just wake up one day and feel better. Until then I'll fake it till I make. I'm good at that, aren't we all?
6 comments:
I'm here for ya man! Love ya Kell!
Is there anything I can do to help you out? I hope you know you can come to me if you need to talk or for anything else! Hey, things are looking up...the SUN is out:)
Kel,
Bring the kids over n' leave 'em with me and go have a break. SERIOUS. There's nothing that can be destroyed here...and you need some R&R...take Carrie or Terry. Just go. :D I expect you to call me and take me up on this!!!
Kelly, that stinks and I've been there. I'm so sorry and I wouldn't want anyone to go through those "dark tunnel" times.
Anyway, I second what Liz said. Call any of us to take the kids and go have some fun. We all love you!
Kelly, I am sad you are feeling so low, but I think it is justified. the comment about faking it sounds way too familiar. Love you, mom
Kel! I'm here. I just got back, well, not just, but I'm functioning again too, so lets go! or come over or bring the kids...I'm going through Kelly withdrawls too. Love ya :)
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